Is it always gonna be like this? idk anymore.
My heart doesn't know what it wants or needs. So I'm very confused right now, i just know that all i have to do is to wear this mask for everyone to see while I go thru this very trying process of life.
O's here i come, but first, prelims, gotta complete it.
:/
I'm eating NasiLemak, if you didn't know, NasiLemak has many qualities but slimming isn't one of them. I'll nvr ever ever be my dream princess :/ Dieting doesn't seem to work on me :/
Feeling: Insecure,nvr ever.

:/ Mood: Siannish, as always.
Mmm, I'm so fat la, suckledoodle.. Must go on SUPERDIET! But they nvr seem to work. Sian
I WANNA GO SWIMMING!!! LIKE EVERY WEEK!!! I'm serious this time, must must must have control and self-discipline. I think if I was like some nun or something, I'll probably get kicked out of the monastery day 1
So conclusion, Becoming a nun is not a suitable occupation.
Now I'm thinking whether I made the right decision, Bo seems to disagree. Will I really be happy there? Eh, who knows..
Now I know why Candice wanted to get some kind of a sign from God(if there's really one out there) *I'm not a skeptic, I just don't believe in religion*.
*Hopefully this won't offend anyone*
Basically it shldn't, nobody shld be reading this, but whatever.
So, the month of July's over, Happy? Sad? Not exactly. July was a huge month. Many things going on, But now that's its over, a kinda nostalgic feeling. Not a great feeling though.
So it's like about 80+ days to O's, don't know if I'm ready. Bo certainly doesn't think i am.. Super demoralizing.
God, and I'm like wasting time blogging now. I have absolutely zero time-management skills. Hah
So, another decision I'm not so sure about. I thought it was a bad idea, but I caved anyways, so i guess I've gotta deal with whatever comes this way then, bloody.
Plus I'm wasting my life away watching "FRIENDS", But I'm like addicted, bloody again.
Plusplus, I conclude, The World's Largest Goldie is.. GUST! HUGE GARGANTUAN MONSTER! But whatev.. I have Kiddy, HAHA. The World's Bloody IDKwhat Dog! Haha, I love you still!

How come people keep coming?
It's supposed to be secret. Nobody's supposed to know. Hahah
Ah yes, the sweet scent of being 13 again. With no O's to worry about.
Goodluck everybody, before the world comes to an end. With swine flu and all.
I might actually see someone i know in the same hospital ward or something, like beside my bed. Haha, isn't that cool? NOT!
Sigh, i'm still bla bla.
Watched MONSTER VS. ALIENS today. Interesting, but wasn't as good as i expected. But i guess its worth watching, for B.O.B the blob. HAHA
Cool aye
OhMiGosh! Y'know how bloody difficult it is to locate a stupid portable hand-fan thingy!
OMG! I walked all around looking for that stupid fan, hahah at least i'm gonna feel cool now. No heat! :D
Watch out for my new fan!
OH OH OH OH OH!! ZacEfron's gonna break up with VanessaHudgens to come look for me in Singapore!! WHOOOOO! On the way now!! WEEEE HAHAHA :D
Torres is also on his way to meet me! HAHAH
Our date's on the 26th of July! :)
I don't like bumping into you anymore, feels weird/awkward. Very uncomfortable, but i can't pull myself away...
So painful, why?

OhMyGoodness! Jac, you still come to my blog?! Wow!
Anyways, there's a cloud appreciation club!
Join and look at pretty and amazing clouds...
Like ones that look like animals or hot pink flying saucers and bla bla
K, so like my results totally sucked, my L1R5 was a whopping 22!! WTH, i don't think i've ever done that bad. SO... I better pull my socks and pants and skirt and everything up! HAHA
Chinese Olevel's are coming, hope a miracle happens and i get like a B3(wishful thinking)or something, cause i've not even passed Chinese once yet :P
Anyways, Liverpool's coming to Singapore! HAHAH I'm gonna go for the match! Buying tickets tmr. HAHAH
I feel retarded, but at least i get to see Torres and Gerrard. And it is a once in a lifetime opportunity.
Well,life sucks now,
-Prom's problematic
No Support, No Demand
-Results suck
Haha, My fault really
-Quarrel
Again, always for no reason
-That feeling's coming back
I thought it was over, But it seems like it's back to haunt me again. Get over it? Maybe
Lastly, I AM GETTING OLD!!!
It's been like 4 years of the same old routines. Doesn't feel like it though. Sometimes i wish life would stop in its tracks and just pause there for the whole of eternity.
Sometimes i wish it would just be all over and we'll just disappear.
Why? In what way? How come i feel this way?
Gaaa, Byebye.
I WANNA GO SHOPPING!

HAHA! OMG! I'm blogging! Hahah and nobody will know!
Ooh, i feel so cool. Almost like a SUPA-SPY!
Hahah lame, like i'm on like a super mission
i feel retarded. HAHA
OKay, nobody will know about this stupid post cause they all think that my blog's dead. HAHAHAHAHA

on the inside

I swear i'm damn irritated by you, Dude! You're irritating. I'm abit wrong lah, but still. RAAAAA! idk lah.
I'm messed up already, i don't wanna apologize. So idk!!!
KUDHKJFKJFS GRRRR!!

I don't know if i was having a moodswing or something, but i sorta know i'm wrong, but i don't wanna admit it. so bah.

I slept for a long long time today.
But i'm still yawning now. I forgot what i wanted to say, and i'm dazed and sleepy. So i'm gonna sleep like now.

HELLO! i'm blogging again hahahaha, proves that i'm seriously very very bored. HAHAHA
sigh training tmrrrrrr. boringgggggg.
HOO caught 2 movies today for the price of 1!! HAHAH
Enchanted and the golden compass. haaha
and after that to the arcade hahah and bishi bashi-ed hoo, i was super off form, i only got up to like the car part and i used 2 coins already, I NEEDA TRAIN! HAHAH
And then we SAW THEODORE AND SIMON!!! HAHAH THEODORE TALKED TO ME!! Hahah, but i didn't understand hahah. Anyways it meant they had a show at 7, so we decided to stay and watch, hahah.
so we watched them sing and dance.
btw for those wondering who the hell theodore and simon are, they're from ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS! HAHAH they were dammit cute.
I'm Theodore.
Joan's Simon.
And
Sarah's Alvin. :D
Hahah we were dressed the same as them haha.
Ice-cream before i went home. haha icecream rocks!
Hahah somebody caught me jumping in puddles on the way to the interchange. hahah.
So i'm done.